Being Religious

Being Religious

              From childhood, I have been groomed by my parents to be religious. Lighting lamp at Puja room every day at dusk and saying loud prayers were compulsory. My parents, my sisters and brother are very religious, and so was I till yesterday.

              So…what happened yesterday?

              Two horrible experiences made me retrospect and I realized something at the age of 53- that you don’t have to go to temples for God’s blessings. First experience was my first visit to Sabarimala. As SP in Pathamthitta District in 1995-96, two Sabarimala seasons passed peacefully with no major accidents or incidents. A lady District Collector had gone beyond Pampa saying it was on official duty which the devotees objected vigorously that time. So, as SP I too thought of traversing beyond Pampa to carry out my official responsibilities, which the High Court objected and denied me permission. I still remember Justice Smt Usha calling me to her and asking me- “are you very particular to go to Sabarimala?” and me replying- “Madam, to carry out my duties…” which she interrupted and said, “Don’t worry, we are posting a Special Officer in Sannidhanam from this year onwards. You just remotely control him from Pampa.” That day, the feminist in me took a decision that I’ll never go to Sabarimala in my life since Lord Ayyappa is, appears or proclaimed as anti-woman. But I reversed this decision this year when my 80 year old mother insisted that she wants to go one last time to Sabarimala. My father climbed the holy hill more than 40 times and was an ardent devotee. My mother went six times and desired for her seventh visit. She weeps with emotion when she talks of her last visits and often says that when leaving Sabarimala she feels like leaving her child alone in the wild forest.

              The Motor Vehicle Department has started Safe Zone Project in Sabarimala 5 years back. This year we extended it to 300 kilometers to help the pilgrims and to provide ease in traffic. The 70 patrols and 500 officers are on continuous duty since 14^th November. As head of Department, I went for the inauguration of Safe Zone in Elavunkal near Pampa. My mother tagged along wanting to see Ayyappa. She was on a strict vegan diet with plans to climb the hill for a month. I, being a vegetarian had to take no special ‘Vritham’. I obliged my mother and decided to climb the hill for the first time. My officers made a lot of arrangements for me and the police officers on duty were kind enough to help. So, after the inaugural function, I went to Pampa, did the preliminary puja of ‘irumudi kettu’ and took my mother up the hill. She went in a doli, I walked. It was 7 pm by the time we reached Sannidhanam. Without halting anywhere, we climbed the 18 holy steps, had a good darshan and retired to the room given to me.

              Next day at 5 am, we again went to the temple for darshan and immediately climbed down. Back in Trivandrum, the first news which greeted me was that my visit to Sabarimala was made into a controversy by the media! One newspaper wrote for 6 days continuously that Police stopped the other pilgrims and made special arrangements for me and my family members to climb the 18 steps. News went on saying ADGP will enquire, Minister will enquire, action will be taken, pilgrims were put to misery, Sreelekha abused her official positions etc, etc. A picture was also given which even I fail to decipher as me or my mother climbing the steps. Another media declared that only women above 60 (!) could go beyond Pampa and I violated the rule. This went on, putting my poor mother in distress. As usual, media’s mud-slinging went on with their hidden agendas, whatever they are, to peter out in due course. Anyway, this made me decide NEVER to go to Sabarimala again.

              The second incident happened very recently in Guruvayur. I went to the famous temple during one of my official visits to Thrissur and had to come back without seeing Guruvayurappan. I asked my officers and the Police Department for help in darshan since it was Sunday and the temple is overcrowded on Sundays with over 100 wedding ceremonies. I waited for someone to come for more than 30 minutes. I saw several known persons, in service & retired officers going in, accompanied by policemen wearing their blue shawls over the dhoti. I tried to go in without help, but it would have taken me minimum 2 hours for a short darshan standing in the queue. I called several people with pleas for help, no response! I asked Guruvayurappan what to do. He told me, “Why did you come here in the first place? Fool, I am not just here, I am everywhere. Just see me in your mind and pray. And don’t ever come here again!” I went back, weeping tears of joy. A great lesson was learnt! No VIP darshan, no controversies, no targeted media attacks! I prayed to the smiling Unnikrishnan who stood mischievously within my mind all my way back.

              I still believe in the power of God. I still pray a lot. In fact, every day. But if being religious means going to famous temples, then I stopped being religious. No more Guruvayur, Thiruppathi, Palani or Attukaal. God is omnipresent, omnipotent. Do good, be good and abide by whatever you think is correct and good for yourself and others. Then God will be there right next to you, helping you, guiding you and blessing you!

Thank you, Ayyappa…. Thank you Guruvayurappa…!!!!